The Key To Love Is Learning How To Not Lose Yourself or Repress Yourself

It's pretty hard to not lose yourself in the relationships around you without defaulting into "going numb" to be around these people, escaping into hobbies and other "less priority" friendships in order to not be impacted by the ones you love, and changing who you are and what you like in order to get along.

I don't know why this happens but it does.

So back to basics, each day you gotta ask yourself, "What can I do today to stay connected to the real me?"  Personally I have always wanted to be a spiritual writer (published author) however I did have an idea that if I just started a blog I would be able to write about spiritual solutions to everyday issues and one day take all those entries and turn them into a book.  When I take the time to write everyday I feel like I'm still holding onto a part of me that defines me.

Then there was the time that I grew up in a house where the people were non-practicing spiritual people and they had no desire to go to church or do anything spiritually oriented so I learned how to just pray in my room and learn on my own whatever books I was drawn to in the religious and spiritual section.  And then I married into a family that was the same, they would rather work then go to church together.  My ex monster spouse wasn't into creating a "church going" family like I wanted.  So there went another 15 years of not going to church or anything like that, just doing it alone.

Then the day came when some Mormon missionaries knocked on my door and all of a sudden I had two people who would come over everyday and read the bible with me.  (FYI I wanted to be a nun when I was little.)  So it wasn't until this happened that I truly reconnected with the part of me that always wanted to have a foot in the church door of life.  Like I simply like the positive energy of it all.  So I started going to service.  Anyway the point is I always knew I wanted to be a "church person" but I never did it because the loved ones around me wouldn't do it with me.  So I repressed a big part of myself.  

My message to you is don't repress who you are. I used to judge myself as "dumb person" for wanting to go to service.  My family told me that church people were all brain washed sheep.  But the truth is I wasn't being the real me by repressing who I was inside.  

Getting back to the real you may end up becoming the greatest journey you take in life but it is worth it because you are worth it.

You are unique and special and have something to offer to this world and your God Given Message to share isn't going to impact anything if you are diluting it with a lifestyle that isn't making who you really are stronger and better.

A safe place for you to go.

This is a good one.

It means that you find someone who makes you feel safe

and if it's been a very long time since you've been able to feel safe this will feel like a prayer answered.

This is someone who keeps your secrets, listens and doesn't tell you what you should be feeling.

Someone that you know you can be yourself around because this person isn't going to manipulate you or use your words against you in some future fight.

If you've been around people that you have to keep your guard up with then this person will feel like a place you can rest in a storm.

I really love this message.

Someone needs to hear what you have to say.

The good news is that someone needs to hear what you have to say.

Or you need to hear what someone else has to say.

Either way focus on the message

not the messenger.

The Oracle Of The Dragonfae

Just keep going forward.

So this card... lets look at the symbols...

Darkness:  Can't readily see the answer or information that I need

Unicorn:  Purification, answered prayer

The good news is that this period of being unsure, it's going to come to an end and the core message is to just keep going in the direction of what you know is true for you.  So if calling on Christ on every day is the thing that does it for you then just stick with that.  This is a time to just stick with what you know works for you and the answers and information that you need will come forward.

You're going to be moving forward very soon.

Card from Messages From Your Angels Oracle Cards

A kindred spirit grounds you and you feel calm.

The good news is that this card means we come into contact with someone who has the ability to ground us.  Personally I don't even try to ground myself anymore.  I only come down to earth when someone my heart loves is near me physically.  And you have this affect on your spiritual friend too.  When we connect with soul friends it just has that ability to soothe us and the anxiety rolls back and you can face life's problems more easily somehow.

So yay to getting your feet back on the ground because someone you love comes closer.

Card from Celebration of Love Oracle Cards

Something very Christ-like happened I think.... friendship blossomed.

"See yourself and others through the eyes of the angels, with unconditional love and acceptance.  In this way,  you inspire and life everyone to their highest potential."

OK so I was remembering when I first met the boys and I had told them - in a very disjointed and unclear way- a revelation that they were triggering in me.  Only I said it wrong because I hadn't had time to say it right and so I knew what I was trying to say but it came out wrong.

It had something to do with acceptance.  Like I'm all about "Don't shoot the messenger," and I had the feeling that being a missionary wasn't as easy as they make it seem.  Cause you don't really see angry disgruntled missionaries.  Like if someone insults them they smile and turn the other cheek and I can see where people might find that annoying....on both sides. 

What I had tried to say was people get too caught up on who the messenger is...in this case I was meaning people having preconceived notions about what a Mormon missionary was.  Most people aren't even sure what a Mormon is so I think it's easy to just assume they are like bible salesmen or something.  FYI they are Christians.

And most people feel their relationship with a higher power, in this case Christ, is personal and good enough.  So I can see where the average human being would be closed off from the start to hearing what these people - these messengers- had to say.  And it goes the other way too, it's possible these missionaries are just as closed off to us people - also messengers- and what we have to say.

Cause people are people in the end usually.

But I happened to want to be a priest and I happened to want to be a theologian and I still am very interested in biblical research.  But they didn't know this when I opened the door.  And because they don't have nuns or priests in their church I'm not sure they can even grasp what I'm saying when I say that if it had gone according to my plan I would have been a nun.  And they didn't even know that priests and nuns got college degrees.

Anyway....  when I would open the door I looked on them as messengers and I was open to the messages of Christ they wanted to bring up.  And I thank God that I came to them as a blank slate instead of assuming that I knew what their message already was.  Because when I did say they could leave literature or I did ask them what scriptures would have helped them if they were older housewives who were divorcing a crazy sociopath and starting their lives over at the middle of their lives and somehow trying to be a decent human being and parent to the three kids that were obviously already emotionally damaged from the family splitting in the way it did, they didn't judge either and they brought me comfort in those evenings... and something very Christ like happened I think.... friendship blossomed.

After all the people you forgive the very last one ends up being yourself.

Try not to put yourself last. 

The good news is you now have the option to jump past a bunch of layers and just get to the heart of it: self forgiveness.  I forgive me, I forgive you, now try and forgive yourself.

Card from Magical Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards

The Word Wants To be Written and communication happens.

Communication in some form...sometimes it's direct like a text message, email, letter, through a book, lyrics, a valuable triggering keyword.

Sometimes when we don't have the time, the energy, the paper and pen, communication comes through other ways like intuitive connection, telepathic reception, or someone else telling you what the other person can't.

The good news is that some message is coming for you or through you.

Let it come through.

The angels have shown up today to send you healing.

Someone found out this week that she has cancer.  So to all those dealing with issues that are so personal and looking for comfort I hope this brings a sign that warms you with comfort.

 Gods and Goddesses Oracle Card deck, by Toni Carmine Salerno

Money is simply flowing energy.

I should meditate on an issue that I have personally with money which is it feels like it's other people who are in control of my money and their decision to give it to me or not.  I did do an archetype wheel reading once with Caroline Myss cards and the Inner Child came up in my money section which actually made sense to me.  I could go into a long list of how my money patterns seem to somehow always include having to trust that the people around me will provide for me.

I hate this pattern.

So I'm sure on some deep level I've come to believe that people somehow equal to eventually having financial power over me.  It seems so straight forward and easy right?  Just keep a job and spend less then you make.  So easy.  But it's not easy when the jobs always end almost as soon as they begin.  And when the bills add up to more then you have.  And the kids need more and more things everyday.  And....

So I'm trying to see what the good news is here....I think for me the good news is that maybe I'll change my financial story....maybe I'll make it so that it reads:

"And Jackie g was such a money magnet that so much money would rush to stick to her and fill up her bank accounts and pockets and wallets that even all the people who wanted to control how much she could have weren't able to stop her from being the wealthy rich and financially blessed person that God intended her to be.  There was so much money pouring in everyday that she couldn't even spend it all if she wanted to."

And so the good news for all of us is that we can rewrite the old script, the old story.  The new story can have a happy ending.  And the money can simply flow on in over all of us.

Not of this world.

The good news is that  when we remember that we are family of God, the sons and daughters of God, and that even angels are commissioned to minister to us, we begin to detach from the drama here in this world

and reconnect back to God,

who is able to give us the directions and the signs that will lead us from where we are to where we are meant to be.  The other good news is that prayer and being around spiritually conscious minded people (from authentic church people who really do try to follow Christ's example to the people who seem to live life in a way that draws out what is good about us) is all that you really need to start seeing the signs and having the revelations again.

Card from Sacred Rebels Oracle.

Surprise: You are so happy!

This is from Ross Bonacci's app My Oracle Cards.

It cheers me up just looking at it.

And of course the good news is that a surprise is coming.  Something unexpected...maybe something you didn't think was an option like someone who was supposed to move, doesn't.  Or someone you thought couldn't find you, does.

Or the money comes in.

Or things just start moving forward again.

Or.....you fill in the blanks.

Pink Angel Feather: Love is in the air!

Omg so my youngest daughter loves to play with pink boas and so everyday there are pink feathers everywhere and they even blow outside so I have all these pink feathers like trailing me wherever I go.

So it was interesting to see this as I had actually wondered if pink feathers mean something.

So the good news is, for the romantics out there, that "The Romance Angels are here to inform you that there is an interesting development about to take place in your love life."

I say Bring it On Romance Angels.

Bring it on!

From the Angel Feather Oracle

Assistance

Assistance is:  the provision of money, resources, or information to help someone.

So this card tells me that Archangel Michael and Mother Mary are coming in and they are 

bringing Divine Help to us, thank you Jesus and Amen to that.

Also the healing of the reasons of why we used to have a hard time asking for help or 

speaking up honestly about what it is that we really need.

So the good news is that this is a sign that something you were struggling with becomes 

easier because the money, resources, or information that you need is on the way.

Card from Return of the Spirit Oracle Cards Deck

I Am Blessed....and I Bless You

I remember once I hung a wreath on the front door and a bird made a nest in it and laid eggs and the eggs hatched and I had a mama bird and her three chicks in a nest on my front door and people would come and look and it was like, "Why did this happen to your front door?  Are you special?"

I could only say that I wasn't special and I didn't know and the attention from strangers made me uncomfortable.

So this card is about getting a sign, a big sign, that makes you have to say, "I don't really know why this happened to me...I've been so less then ordinary lately."

The truth is we are all children, meaning family, to our Heavenly Source...some call it God.  I like to think of Heaven as a celestial realm, a dimension that is so much purer in vibration then the vibration we are in now.  And for us stuck here it feels lonely and disoriented and maybe even pointless.

So then God sends us a sign that lets us know, "Hey we are still family. I'm still here for you."

It's the kind of thing that leaves you feeling like you are blessed.....

So take this as a good sign.  A really good sign that things are about to upgrade and swing up.

Card from the Wisdom of the Golden Path Oracle Deck.

Surfacing: Getting prepared for what is about to come out into the open.

I feel like this can be the keyword for the day.

So what is surfacing?  

Here's the vision I get:  You've been sensing for a while that someone close to you has been holding back something and you can't shake this feeling no matter how much you try and shrug it off.  This doesn't imply something bad is being kept a secret, more like your intuition is catching something on it's radar and you want to know now what is going on.  Sometimes it's as simple as people who just try and figure their stuff out alone without the need to inform you of what is going on.  So this card is a head's up that your prayer is being answered and this person will come out and share very soon.

OR you are going through some things and it's got you in a place where you seem distant or even MIA with your loved ones.  So if that is the case then know that the people around you would really love for you to share with them and it's not like you are trying to push people away, more like life got really busy all of a sudden.  Still people like to know what is going on so be considerate and send a text.

Card from Return of Spirit Oracle Cards

You can have a direct connection to God, you don't need anyone to do it for you.

"I open my heart to my guides and trust in the wisdom they share with me."

So you can take this beyond angels and go all the way to God with it.  You can ask God to give you an answer, usually it comes back as a sign that is personal for you or you receive a revelation that simply connects the dots for you.  

It's really easy, you simply get yourself into a calm state of being and then I simply just talk to God and all the saints and the angels and I tell them to come into my world and show me the truth or the choice I should make.  And usually within the day the signs start coming and it usually starts with a message of hope and love, that everything is going to be ok, that whatever has to happen I will have the Divine Help to get through it, that whatever I am afraid of I can let go of now because Divine Intervention has been activated.  And then the burdens get lighter, the situation is still heavy, but the burdens seem lighter, and I just follow the signs.

Be careful not to disregard the signs though.  If it gives you a sense of comfort and calmness then it's most likely Divine Connection.

Card from the Conscious Spirit Oracle Cards Deck.

Butterfly: take this as a sign that change is coming. Yay!

You made it through the transition.

Also in this stage of life the thing that is a "butterfly" is moving into the stage of looking for it's mate.

So I would take this as a sign that love is also going to be coming forward....the healing power of love and the beautiful thing called a "relationship with someone special."

Surround yourself with positive people and situations and avoid negativity.

Sometimes we have to confront a negative situation though and so having positive people who draw out the best in you will help you to face reality rather then stay in denial.

Ok so here's my experience:

Positive people draw out the best in you and in those moments when the wounds are coming out they offer you words of wisdom, hugs from the heart, healing and comfort, friendship and support to change.

Negative people confuse you with their actions, words, and the situations that they place you in.  They draw out what is wrong with you and perpetuate it rather then help you consciously heal and change it and turn that weakness into strength.

You know these people by their fruits.

You can't always assume that their "role" is an automatic given of who they are to you.  I've met "church people" who don't live up to the standards they have for others.  I've seen "non church people" live the gospel authentically and never have read the bible or care to.

So here's the blast of positive energy for today:  be mindful of who you are around lately and notice what these people draw out of you naturally.  

I ask Christ to make you a blessing to whoever crosses your path today :)

Card from Magical Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards deck.